It’s a cold and lazy day today. Woke up this morning, with a groggy feeling. And a I-don’t-want-to-go-to-work attitude. And I have to forcibly drag my a** off the bed. I may have called in sick actually – the evil plan – but it won’t work this time. I’d be left all alone in the office now. That’s the disadvantage of just having 3 of your staff – 1 is on maternity leave, 1 is on vacation and 1 is having her doctor’s appointment, so that leaves me all alone in the office. All alone, it’s cold and raining outside – very gloomy indeed, with piles of work waiting for me. Not to mention phone calls to attend to. I really can’t escape. So here I am tied on my desk for full 8 hours, or less – if I choose to be again lazy today.
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I dunno what’s gotten into me lately, but BURNOUT is my alarm bell these days. Hah, it’s alarming, I must say. The splitting headaches, recurring back and shoulder pains, unstable REM, high BP, short breaths, etc. -- symptoms of chronic fatigue (my God, I sound like Dr. Grey, or even Dr. Cameron – too much House and Grey’s Anatomy for me).
I remember those pre-resignation moves I had with my past companies. But then, I realize there were no “I-resign!” drama which I had to deal with. The first one, well, I went on AWOL (bad bad me) after getting tired of the home-office setup, work just couldn't stop even on weekends. I basically lived in a home office somewhere in San Juan that time. The next one, well, I was project manager for an annual event and was on contractual basis – when the event ended, I didn’t renew my contract (too much politics for me that time – but I did gain friends there). Next one (and the most recent one, 3 years ago) – well, I had no choice – I was the 5th “man” standing – NCI has already let go of the other 100+ employees. They had to let me go too!
Not to mention my short stint on radio - while I was on LOA from college. I also didn't resign from that. I had to go back to school, so I had to leave Sir Paul and the gang, and my fans! I can still remember my last on-air shift on that -- all those crying and dramatic goodbyes / thank-you's on the air. Parting is such sweet sorrow.
I don’t even know how to write a resignation letter, so I have to compose a heart-wrenching letter this time. As to the submission date, I’m just waiting for the perfect time. Timing is important.
I may not have to get my 13th- month pay this year then. :-(
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It's so gloomy outside, that you just want to stay in bed and forget all your worries. Unfortunately for me, I can’t do that. The board reports, post-event report for 4th of July event, membership reports, calls to return to, and pending payments to make are all waiting for me.
I’m such a slave.
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